Swan Song

The epiphany of Perdana with his idiosyncrasies.
(2007-2010)

As I reflect on my life journey these past three years reading most of my entries in this blog, it is pleasant to know that I have indeed learned a lot from the decisions I've made along the way. When opportunity knocked, I'm glad that in retrospect, I didn't lock the door but instead, embraced it with an open mind.

But when the truth hits home, it hits hard.

This is my 200th entry at http://just-perdana-and-you.blogspot.com/ but after so many posts, I have - for the better or the worse of it - decided to announce the demise of this blog. After all, the signs have been clear all along; my rate of publishing was akin to an unrelenting locomotive but five months into the year of 2010, the rate dwindled exponentially and this year, I have only published three measly posts (inclusive of this one). To a large extent, I have to admit the malady induced by my (jejune) life as it is now played a big role in this dearth of posts. Furthermore, I feel that the demise of the blog is just an impending one, since my vision and philosophy in life has changed insofar as I feel like a different person entirely and that this blog is like a reminder of the persona that I used to project to the outside world, the person I used to be. Now, I have decided to move on, giving this blog its coup de grâce, and I hope without sounding too memento mori-ish...

Reading my inaugural entry here affirmed my decision. There and then, I was an apprehensive student fresh out of secondary school and into junior college, not knowing what to expect and how life in my pre-university years would unfold for me (with some really, really silly worries like, "Will people hate me if I tell the whole world how atrocious they are?", "Will I score straight-A’s and distinctions for my A-levels?" or "Will I ever get that it-pays-so-handsomely-I-can-retire-by-the-age-of-25 kind of job?"). But hey, fast forward three years later and here, now, you have the 21-year-old me, arguably a young adult whose perspective in life has matured, someone who is ready to take on whatever life has in store for him.

So, be it my apprehension prior to my O-level results, paranoia as if the world was going to end when I got posted to SAJC instead of NJC, my eventual realization that I was blessed to be in SA and finally graduating therefrom with countless fond memories or even my random, quirky reflection on random topics such as friendship or love, it is safe to say that it is all passé now. True, it was fun documenting my feelings and experience all in one platform like this, but as much as I'd love to, I can't relive it now because the past, will always remain, well, the past, and this blog is done serving its purpose, to accompany me at this part of my life.

I am not ruling out the possibility of me creating a new blog maybe once I ORD or enter the university (one that continues in the spirit of The epiphany of Perdana with his idiosyncrasies., filling up the lacuna created by this unfortunate departure), but at least for now, we have to say goodbye. I would like to end this with one song which I feel encapsulates and celebrates the zeitgeist of this blog, Westlife's 'Unbreakable' because I always hope that this bond we've forged thus far will be just like that, unceasing despite the passage of time.



Three years ago, I wrote that I wouldn't want to worry unduly about life because I just want to be "washed away and to follow the flow", living by the maxim que sera, sera.

Well, I cannot say it any better.

Whether you loved me or hated me, whether you thought I was genius or I was crap, I hope that The epiphany of Perdana with his idiosyncrasies has inspired you, made you laugh, cry, think (if not sneer at all my idiosyncrasies).

Cheers to whatever the future holds, it's indeed been a good run. And don't worry so much about tomorrow lest you can't live your life to the fullest because like what I said, que sera, sera.

Godspeed, and thank you for being a really great audience! (:




For the very last time,



The epiphany of Perdana with his idiosyncrasies.