Merry Christmas (:

And so, it is that time of the year.

I haven't done much reflections about the year 2008 when the new 2009 will soon come to pass. Alas, I don't think I would have the luxury of time to really have some serious thinking. At least not with the way things are - with so little free time at my disposal.

In retrospect, I have indeed enjoyed the year 2008 thoroughly. Sure, it wasn't impeccable; certain things definitely did not go the way I wanted them to be. Nevertheless, I am grateful that as another year ceases, I gain so much more in return.

A-levels. Check.
Turning 19. Check.
Start working. Check.

Probably the list would be a long one and I could bore you to death if I were to specify the things I managed to do in the past 350-odd days.

This year, I decided to top my 'New Year Resolution' list with "Enjoy life more." I shall not go to the extent of embracing Epicureanism but instead, I aim to make myself see the finer things in life even more.

I apologize for the lack of transitions in this post.

I will see the new and improved you in the coming year (:

Before I leave, I would like to thank a particular 'you' for your Christmas card:

And thank you, pretty much, for simply being the person you are :D

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!




Season's greetings from http://just-perdana-and-you.blogspot.com :D




Perd.

If I were a girl...

Act I, Scene I
Location Cafe Cartel, Plaza Singapura

Perd: Um, I think I have a problem.

Grimaces, looks down and keeps quiet. Eugene, Jerico and Priscilla jolted into coercing themselves to be quiet too, awkwardly, with their eyes wide open.

A few uncomfortable seconds later.

Jerico: What are you talking about?!
Perd: I don't know lei. It's like, it has been some time since I last liked someone and don't you think it's a bit weird?
Eugene: No lah, where got?
Priscilla: Ya lor, (anyone) must be liking someone all the time meh?
Perd: Huh? No meh? I think so lei.

Haha.

I think this is the closest the taciturn me will ever get to being privy to my blog readers because this post will be very personal. Yeah, the above is a re-enaction of a real past event. Oftentimes, I do wonder if I actually have feelings for someone because it has been almost two years since I stopped liking that girl. To protect the privacy of the said person, I shall make her anonymous but that's besides the point. What I want to say is, I was actually convinced by those three people with whom I had a tea-break that there's nothing wrong if it has been years since you last fell head over heels, even if at first it might sound as if you were abnormal or something. A mental note I made to self, I do not want to succumb to such mental trap. It is the kind of perception that traps many of us into a prison of regret and anxiety. Why can't you remain single if singlehood makes you happy? Would I be way better off if I had someone to report to and someone whose SMSes I have to reply even though I am busy? Granted, being in a relationship has its own long list of perks but for now, at the very least, I am rather happy with the status quo, until the moment comes for me. Nevertheless, please note that I do not judge you who are in a relationship; in fact, I am really happy for you :D

On another note, I remember posting this post about seven months ago, about the 21 little-known things guys wish girls knew about them. Before you judge me to be just another misogynistic male chauvinist whose male ego is bigger than his head, let me assure you that I am only incorporating the aforesaid 21 things into this purely for fun, with all due respect to all girls out there.

I am referring to Beyonce's If I Were A Boy



If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted and go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it
Cause they’d stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
So they think
that I was sleeping alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waiting for me to come home (to come home)

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted (wanted)
Cause he’s taken you for granted (granted)
And everything you had got destroyed

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake
Think I forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you're just a boy
You don’t understand (yea you don’t understand)
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you’ll wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you've taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy…

Okay, now, I really love the song and I really respect the message behind this song because frankly, I have to admit that it does contain some kernels of truth, even if they are based on a rather stereotypical observation. I am not saying that the song is very true because I am trying to score some brownie points with any girl reading this blog (c'mon, I am not a loser, please. Attracting girls through blogs? Um, only when my damned last resort - getting a date via matchmaking services - fails, I guess, and that's hopefully in a zillion of years' time), though. But yeah, anyway, if I were to write a fraction of the song, I guess the lyrics would probably be something like this (it's gonna be contrived and cheesy, yeah?):

If I Were a Girl
(Originally written by Britney Carlson, Toby Gad, Beyonce Knowles)

If I were a girl
Even just for a day
I'd text him to know where he is,
What he's doing, well, everything
Gossip with the girls
And manicure all-day long
I'd prefer more time with my girlfriends
To watching that football match with him
Because I can't stand the heat

If I were a girl
I'd not want to understand
How it feels to be a guy
Cause being a girl is always the best
I will never trade
My vanity and pride
To confess 'I Love You' to him
Because it is always his job
So why must I relegate myself?

I told you, this is just for fun, don't get offended or call me names. Ah, by the way, if you think that I am writing all this because my last relationship didn't work out or I was traumatized by it, don't worry, she and I parted happily and as much as we enjoyed each other's company, we knew that things just wouldn't work out no matter how hard we try because the problem that we had was not about each other but rather, about ourselves (:

Wow, I can't believe I just typed something so private here. Well, there's always the first time for everything. But that's it for now. Haha!

I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this
World someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way.




Your self-declared-alpha-male blogger,



Perd.

So, you want to learn to prognosticate? Learn it from Facebook :P

Haha.

It seems like you don't have to try very hard to foresee the future because Facebook.com actually enables you to predict what your friends will say about you, and the prophecy is sure to be accurate.

I don't kid people.

Look at this:



Wow, so cool, Facebook can actually see the future, that is, what your friends will say, in this instance.

Of course not! This is a very interesting technical glitch, I assume. At least I can criticize it for using the wrong tense. I mean, how can you "wrote" (past tense) something tomorrow (implying a future tense)? Haha. Anyway, you must have guessed that I am bored insofar as I actually post such an entry. You could be right, because I really don't know.

Okay, it's time to go to sleep. I am starting to make no sense.



Your kooky blogger,



Perd.

The Bucket List that I Thought I'd Lost

Yeah, the title says it all. Since a picture is worth a thousand words, check out the attached photo to read my bucket list (well, sorry for short-changing you, though. There are fewer than 1000 words in that picture).

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

Yes, Mat, I know Mika's Happy Ending is "depressing" but the only reason why I set it as my ringtone is because, well, of the malaise of cynicism and despair in me :P

For all I know, the 'malaise' here could jolly well be literal; I missed the fun from the Prom day because of a terrible headache, which anchored me back to my bed at home. Grr. That's so loser, Perd, staying at home when everyone else was partying.

Haha. Okay, this dark humor thing is beginning to scare me.

Never mind, just listen to the song and see if you too can relate to it ;)



Personally, I am not a fan of Mika myself. I only began to think the song wasn't bad when I heard it in one episode of Gossip Girl.

Okay, okay, I need to sleep - the headache isn't going away, yet :(




Your homebound blogger (as if staying at home would be a happy ending when it was the Prom night!),



Perd.